A Lesson to be Learnt in Life...

Layback. Relax. Enjoy.

Yes, i was wayy to stressy last week, and yes it WAS paranoia and i was put straight.
Just enjoy life, enjoy space, freedom along with the perks of someone who cares alot about you, who you mean a heck of a lot more to than a 'posh bit of totti' though you still can be a posh bit of totti.

And i've found my problem.
This is what i like about blogging. I blog when i want to, i can blog everyday, every hour, every 3 years and it doesn't matter to me or to anyone else! It makes a blind bit of difference. So, i blog when i want. Yes I want. I control it. I'm in charge.
Yet with a relationship it's a tad different. We've moved beyond the point of having to make contact everyday. And im very happy with that. And on Saturday i was all up for that, waiting until Wednesday to call him and wait for him to make the 'first effort.' Which, leads me to my problem: I'm scared that this relationship will follow the same pattern as my last. We ended up only speaking when I called or only making contact when i initiated it. So i suppose this is a kind of test. Which again sound wierd and psychoeey from my point :s.

I like my space, i want my space, i need my space, but i also need to know that i am wanted, i am missed and i am worth it. Because he is all those things to me.

Its the end of Sunday, and im doubting i can make it to Wednesday, i shall only keep it up until it affects my mood deeply. Shameful such thing would, i know, but when you get used to everyday contact, it's like an addiction, going cold turkey may be the best to do, but is damn hard.


On a sub note, my problem with the post below was that i listened to the advice of a cling-on.

So...2 life lessons to be learnt here:

1) If you take advice, consider not only the advice, but the adviser.
and
2) Enjoy life, take it easy, life is good. It really is. :)