Yes, You Guessed it...

I am single again.

So here is a post on how to cope with being dumped:

Whatever the reason, and you may not know, him rejecting you does NOT mean that everyone feels the same way about you! Do you all have the same friends? No, its people's tastes and circumstances too. But at this time of need, you need to apply a few basic instructions:

1) You need to realise that there is no going back. This IS the end. I am a strong believer that by getting back into a previous relationship is a very very bad idea. However much you want to, you will just make it more painful if you keep a hope up. If there's hope how can you get over these people?!

2) Keep yourself busy. Yes, it will hurt for a little while but keep in control, dance, write a list of stuff that you just love to do and do them! It helps a Goddam lot if you're with friends and other people aswell.

3) Move onwards. Focus on all the good points of the change. You are now free. You can do what you want and think of the numerous opportunities that this change has brought about to your future.

Follow this, and in most situations you will realise that its all part of life's experiences.

Once you are a bit happier, don't go out looking for somebody. Respect yourself. Take this time to be happy being you. And i promise that as soon as you realise this, someone great will come along. :)

Identity?

Who am i? Who i am changes everyday. Changes all the time. Am i the same person now as i was when i wrote "Who am i?" If not, then why not? It was a completely different time. What makes that time different to the moment in time last year or the moment in time when i was born or even the moment in time in which life existed. Has there been a "forever"?

It just happening today that all these questions are popping into my head! All over it, one at a time, 10 at a time, and its tiring me out. So i have actually slept alot to.

It's these questions that have no known answers. And thinking about them only gives you more questions, so in theory its a really huge waste of thinking time!

I was once told i think too much. I suppose that's the point of having a blog for me. I think too much (if thats even possible - oh God here i go again!!) and no one can be bothered to listen. I don't even think this gets read. But its here, at least being here it has its space. If i ever forgot how to think i could come here and see partially into the insanities of my brain.

I have also sometimes wondered whether i am insane. I know i'm crazy but mentally subnormal? The thing that leads me to sometimes feel different, excluded. Who i am means i ponder over my fitting into society. But for all i know, everyone thinks too much, everyone could act the exactly the same.

Here is my blog. My blog of my head.

A Lesson to be Learnt in Life...

Layback. Relax. Enjoy.

Yes, i was wayy to stressy last week, and yes it WAS paranoia and i was put straight.
Just enjoy life, enjoy space, freedom along with the perks of someone who cares alot about you, who you mean a heck of a lot more to than a 'posh bit of totti' though you still can be a posh bit of totti.

And i've found my problem.
This is what i like about blogging. I blog when i want to, i can blog everyday, every hour, every 3 years and it doesn't matter to me or to anyone else! It makes a blind bit of difference. So, i blog when i want. Yes I want. I control it. I'm in charge.
Yet with a relationship it's a tad different. We've moved beyond the point of having to make contact everyday. And im very happy with that. And on Saturday i was all up for that, waiting until Wednesday to call him and wait for him to make the 'first effort.' Which, leads me to my problem: I'm scared that this relationship will follow the same pattern as my last. We ended up only speaking when I called or only making contact when i initiated it. So i suppose this is a kind of test. Which again sound wierd and psychoeey from my point :s.

I like my space, i want my space, i need my space, but i also need to know that i am wanted, i am missed and i am worth it. Because he is all those things to me.

Its the end of Sunday, and im doubting i can make it to Wednesday, i shall only keep it up until it affects my mood deeply. Shameful such thing would, i know, but when you get used to everyday contact, it's like an addiction, going cold turkey may be the best to do, but is damn hard.


On a sub note, my problem with the post below was that i listened to the advice of a cling-on.

So...2 life lessons to be learnt here:

1) If you take advice, consider not only the advice, but the adviser.
and
2) Enjoy life, take it easy, life is good. It really is. :)