Exams, boys and phones...

One can only hope...

I have an exam tomorrow. I would say that i have done alot of revision for it. But i do not feel ready, should i? There's still so much i should know. And along with being tired and thirsty i am not having a great week.

However, I met a guy. He took me on a date. I felt quite because he seems to be everything i've always thought i wanted. Yet, something just wasn't right. I think that something was me. I just wasn't in the mood for a date. I was sitting there thinking You're gorgeous, you want me, you're lovely to me, just the right sort of person i've always imagined. Yet, why am i not happy?

I came to the conclusion that it was sleep deprivation and that i should give him more time and another chance. What harm can it do?
So a couple of days have passed, a couple of text coversations have occured, mostly started by myself.
However, now i have to wait for him to initiate a conversation. And i am hearing echoes of my last relationship. Paranoid that my phone will never buzz. Being obssessed with my phone and not being able to enjoy my own life. *sigh*

The thing is I don't actually mind if he doesn't text, i'm not denying i'd quite like him to, but why am i being phone-obsessed again?! Even if i leave my phone i'm expecting it to buzz. It's just not normal. I think i have an ongoing relationship with my phone. And that, my friends, is just sad.