Our lives are World's apart but our hearts are intertwined.

Back at Uni.

A lecture i had today, about society and space really got me thinking about Joe. Society deems us in separate "categories" in life and we live in separate spatial categories, yet mentally we are together. Shrinking geographies have meant that it is easier to connect, otherwise the relationship would be pointless. Some, even suggest that it is pointless this way. But when i see him, even when i think about him, i know what we have is just far too good to let go. Far too good. Its those moments which you would love to last forever, just pure happiness, and those moments you doubt, because you think you might be dreaming. And i say if those moments are still happening, don't give up on them. Never give up on them. Its those moments, that last forever.

:)

Im happy again. Oh so happy. Just seeing him for 30mins made me a smile that lasts a long time. :D I never wanted to forget the happiness i experience with that boy around. Never ever.
And it pains me that i won't see him for long but it just means that i need to make this time more worthwhile. :)
Much more worthwhile :)
Its an indescribable feeling that i have in my soul. :)

15 Days in and Still Going Strong

So, 15 days in and i'm not denying it hasn't been hard. It has. So hard, in fact, that I forgot how much this place means to me. Yet, at the last minute, I remembered. I've got my very first exam on Wednesday and I get to see my loved one on Thursday. So my emotions are all a bit like a tornado at the moment, unpredictable and causing havoc. I am very nervous about my exam because I know i'm not very well prepared (writing blogs and all, instead of revision) but i'm hoping i can scrape a pass. And then there's going home, having to conflict with the mother, just in order to see the lover. It sucks, yes, but I pray to God that it will be worth it. No doubt our meeting will be a tad weird. We were only seeing each other for a few weeks before I left, so it could all go horribly wrong. I really really hope it won't.

Look after my heart..I've left it with you

3 days in and only had text communication with Joe. Missing him loads...still get the warm fuzzy feelings when i think of him and the silly grin when he sends me a text.
I really want him to still want me.
I'm beginning to panic that he doesn't. Like,n he text me saying he would call me tonight and initially i was very happy, then i realised he could be calling to dump me...and panic set in.
Should i let it shown that i really like him?

Because i do.

You know when you really really need to sleep but it just doesn't happen. I'm at that stage now. Surviving on a diet of Red Bull - shit, i know.

But today was a great day, i spent the day hanging out with Claire at work, seeing Joe in my breaks and after work and the evening was a meal with my friends - The 8some. Oh what a wonderful life!



As for Joe :D Right now i couldn't be happier. He treats me beautifully and i am very much looking forward to a future with him, which i haven't previously felt with anyone.



I understand that it will be hard. I am moving back to the Exe on Sunday and will have to stick with seeing Joe once every three weeks. Damn hard. But hopefully worth it. Just think, i can improve my loyalty skills and engage in a long term relationship! Benefits all round.