Right, so i haven't blogged for a while, and there is a reason for that. I have been very busy being a bad girl, don't get me wrong - i've had fun, time of my life in fact. However, i really need to get back to real life.
Im 20 years old, I've dried my funds out, wrecked havoc to my liver, made my entire body ache for about a week and not done any work in forever. Being a 2nd year, top 20 UK Uni student, that may possibly be a problem! If things keep on like this, i really dont think i will be able to hack it anymore!
So, this morning i have decided to get my act together in fact.
How am i going to do this? I reckon i just need some rules to my life, And enforce them.
I'm aiming to sort out my money issues, my fatigue and help my body regain its full strength as well as staying happy.
1) Drinking - I will stop drinking so excessively. I will have 1 binge night in a week in which i will drink properly.
2) Sleep - I will have at least 2 early nights a week.
3) Money - I will be vigilant with it and tight! I will not eat out. I will look for the cheapest food possible, even if it is gross.
4) Work - I will do my essays in plenty of time, go to ALL lectures and do some background reading and sort out all my notes. I will do my German work on a Sunday.
5) Body - I will go to hockey every week, i will drink plenty of water and i will go running at christmas!
6) Men! - I will be conservative, picky and consider myself of a higher value than i do right now.
7) Mentality - I know who makes me smile and who makes me cry, i will avoid the latter lot. I will not worry too much about what others think. I will smile alot.
8) I just think 8 is a better number so - I will stop frying so much! :)
And alll left now - is just to do it. And to start i will do something nice for the house. I will tidy the houseparty mess downstairs!
Wish me luck!
Wednesday, 26 November 2008
Sunday, 5 October 2008
We do not deserve this!!!
Right now anger is seething through my bones so much that it is 3.27am and i cannot sleep. I have to admit i am tired, having had my earliest night being 2.30am this week but no one, absolutely no one deserves to be treated like i was today. No one.
I have been having such an excellent week, making loads of new friends. However, tonight i bumped into an old mate. He lives with a few old mates, and i ended up in their living room catching up on old times. However, Manc comes home, the first and only thing he said to me all term was "What are YOU doing here?" with a unimpressed look. I ignored it.
The next thing he said a little later was "Don't you two have a house of your own??"
I was having absolutely none of it, i left, there and then. Without saying goodbye.
What a D**k!
I have been having such an excellent week, making loads of new friends. However, tonight i bumped into an old mate. He lives with a few old mates, and i ended up in their living room catching up on old times. However, Manc comes home, the first and only thing he said to me all term was "What are YOU doing here?" with a unimpressed look. I ignored it.
The next thing he said a little later was "Don't you two have a house of your own??"
I was having absolutely none of it, i left, there and then. Without saying goodbye.
What a D**k!
Friday, 18 July 2008
Calling all Students and Kind-Hearted People:
www.milkround.com/repsregistration/default.asp?r=1159131&referer=repid
Heya,
I've just got a role as a marketing person for Milkround.com - it's an undergraduate and graduate recruitment organisation. It's actually pretty good - you get loads of CV / job / offers and advice sent to you (for free), plus information on local talks on certain jobs and so on.
There's no downside to registration - it's free and you can unsubscribe at and point. You have to provide a few details (like date of birth I think)but Milkround is incredibly secure (it's one of the most reputable recruitment and advice websites there is) and registration takes only a minute or so at most.
You may have already signed up to Milkround but for some reason or other that is not how you register.
If you could register yourself via this link I'd be really grateful:
www.milkround.com/repsregistration/default.asp?r=1159131&referer=repid
Hope you are enjoying you're summer.
Me
Heya,
I've just got a role as a marketing person for Milkround.com - it's an undergraduate and graduate recruitment organisation. It's actually pretty good - you get loads of CV / job / offers and advice sent to you (for free), plus information on local talks on certain jobs and so on.
There's no downside to registration - it's free and you can unsubscribe at and point. You have to provide a few details (like date of birth I think)but Milkround is incredibly secure (it's one of the most reputable recruitment and advice websites there is) and registration takes only a minute or so at most.
You may have already signed up to Milkround but for some reason or other that is not how you register.
If you could register yourself via this link I'd be really grateful:
www.milkround.com/repsregistration/default.asp?r=1159131&referer=repid
Hope you are enjoying you're summer.
Me
Wednesday, 2 July 2008
Time Can't Stand Still
I think i need to read my "men - who needs them?!" speech again. I don't know what's happening. Maybe it's because i'm getting older. The clock is slowly ticking, time is running out and i've yet to have a serious relationship. Bugger.
But that is hardly an excuse for my behaviour. Or my overactive imagination. Spinning and twisting truths until i've not just got everyone fooled, i've got myself fooled too.
Then again, am i trying so hard NOT to be obssessive that i am obssessing over everything. Self evalutation is a hazardous thing.
All i need to remember is - to heck with bad bits in life. Enjoy it. You never know when it may end.
And in memory to the first person i knew that died: R.I.P. J.B. You were a great guy. xxx
But that is hardly an excuse for my behaviour. Or my overactive imagination. Spinning and twisting truths until i've not just got everyone fooled, i've got myself fooled too.
Then again, am i trying so hard NOT to be obssessive that i am obssessing over everything. Self evalutation is a hazardous thing.
All i need to remember is - to heck with bad bits in life. Enjoy it. You never know when it may end.
And in memory to the first person i knew that died: R.I.P. J.B. You were a great guy. xxx
Saturday, 31 May 2008
Times like These
There's those split seconds in life, where you feel happy, not just content, happy. I walked across the terrace, with the sun softly warming my skin, a Fanta Orange in my hand, quenching my thirst, my hunger statisfied, my satisfied, someone who loves me, people who want me and my work finally beginning to seem do-able. That my friends, is why, life is so precious. I wish for everyone to have the same happiness, that encompasses my life today. :D
Wednesday, 28 May 2008
Exams, boys and phones...
One can only hope...
I have an exam tomorrow. I would say that i have done alot of revision for it. But i do not feel ready, should i? There's still so much i should know. And along with being tired and thirsty i am not having a great week.
However, I met a guy. He took me on a date. I felt quite because he seems to be everything i've always thought i wanted. Yet, something just wasn't right. I think that something was me. I just wasn't in the mood for a date. I was sitting there thinking You're gorgeous, you want me, you're lovely to me, just the right sort of person i've always imagined. Yet, why am i not happy?
I came to the conclusion that it was sleep deprivation and that i should give him more time and another chance. What harm can it do?
So a couple of days have passed, a couple of text coversations have occured, mostly started by myself.
However, now i have to wait for him to initiate a conversation. And i am hearing echoes of my last relationship. Paranoid that my phone will never buzz. Being obssessed with my phone and not being able to enjoy my own life. *sigh*
The thing is I don't actually mind if he doesn't text, i'm not denying i'd quite like him to, but why am i being phone-obsessed again?! Even if i leave my phone i'm expecting it to buzz. It's just not normal. I think i have an ongoing relationship with my phone. And that, my friends, is just sad.
I have an exam tomorrow. I would say that i have done alot of revision for it. But i do not feel ready, should i? There's still so much i should know. And along with being tired and thirsty i am not having a great week.
However, I met a guy. He took me on a date. I felt quite because he seems to be everything i've always thought i wanted. Yet, something just wasn't right. I think that something was me. I just wasn't in the mood for a date. I was sitting there thinking You're gorgeous, you want me, you're lovely to me, just the right sort of person i've always imagined. Yet, why am i not happy?
I came to the conclusion that it was sleep deprivation and that i should give him more time and another chance. What harm can it do?
So a couple of days have passed, a couple of text coversations have occured, mostly started by myself.
However, now i have to wait for him to initiate a conversation. And i am hearing echoes of my last relationship. Paranoid that my phone will never buzz. Being obssessed with my phone and not being able to enjoy my own life. *sigh*
The thing is I don't actually mind if he doesn't text, i'm not denying i'd quite like him to, but why am i being phone-obsessed again?! Even if i leave my phone i'm expecting it to buzz. It's just not normal. I think i have an ongoing relationship with my phone. And that, my friends, is just sad.
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